1st Major Accident

It's been a week plus since it happened. Narrow escape I would say (in part thanks to the driver's quick but not so quick response). Oh yes it's good news that I wasn't hurt but the experience scared the life off me. I know that by me not getting hurt is more important but then all I wanted was someone to care for me and not tell me that it's normal and everything's gonna be fine. Obviously I know that but I felt extremely fragile despite the defensive angry mode I put out. The image of the car coming towards me stayed in my mind all the time. I get the chill whenever there are cars coming fast on the opposite direction or a car that's way too near me now. At the moment of the accident, I was frightened and I wish that the one that walked away was there. Why so I asked myself...I don't know. I guessed I needed someone to comfort me, someone to hug me and assure me that I'm alright.

P.S. To all drivers and future drivers out there-Be responsible of your live and the lives of each and every road users' whenever you're at the driver's seat.

Who Am I?

Have I made myself invinsible or have I been like this all this while? Why do I get the feeling of being left out in conversations among friends and family? Am I a tough person to talk to? Am I an attention seeker? Who am I? Am I too proud of myself? Did I put myself on a pedestal that I build myself? Am I too self absorbed? Who am I? Why am I having all this doubts? Am I losing myself? Who am I? Who am I? =(

Am I OK?

25 years old and I am not sure where is my life heading to, is it normal? Working but on contract, besides friends and family what else do I really own? Nothing. No someone to come back to, no place to call my own, yikes. Blessed as I am sometimes it's tough. Am I gonna achieve something in my life? Will I be proud when I look back when I'm in my eighties? So many questions, so many doubts. Who can answer? Or guide me in finding my life? I am tired