I did it again.....what's wrong with me? I would love to fall in love again but the fear of getting hurt yet again is too daunting. I'm truly sorry if my actions had let you on and I'm sorry for breaking your heart. Please forgive me. I know very well that we'll be different from now on, I can't blame anyone, it's my own doings, I feel so stupid. But some say in love there's no right or wrong, no black no white. Dear Lord, please help me to handle these situations better the next time around.
Heartbreaker
December 06, 2008
November 22, 2008
It's different
It had been 4 months since I left Research Laboratory 3, Level 3 of Monash University. Throughout my Honours year in this lab, many events had taken place. I missed the people in this lab- Angela, Mei Zhen, Ice, Iris, Chien Wen- many of us have left and our seats have been replaced by new people whom I don't share as much time as I had with these 5 girls. I miss these times- mahjong, swimming, karaoke, dinners, lunches etc. There were events where I had been having with the new girls, they are nice people but I feel awkward for the atmosphere and conversation now is different. They are engaged with their little little conversations which I don't understand for I have left. Lab 3 has a new life which I am not part of anymore. Sad but this is life, everyone has to move forward!
Adoration
- I just simply adore old couples who still hold each others hands, just like when they were young and deeply in love. I find them really sweet and so loving. I hope I will find my other half and be able to hold his hands till we're old. I wish I could find someone whom I could fall in love with everyday (and vice-versa).
- A SMILE brightens anyones day, no matter from whom. I love to see the smiles of loved ones, babies and children. I love to hear their laughters. This simple gesture fills one heart to the brim with happiness and blessings. SMILE and the world SMILES with you :D
- I am not much of a talker, never the one to start a conversation. To some and especially to new friends, I could be a boring person. But I love talking. I am truly thankful for I was blessed with 2 girlfriends whom I enjoyed talking to without holding back my thoughts and feelings. Once I had a close guy friend whom I could chat with for hours, I lost him for quite sometime but I know that one day we will be able to chat again just like before. We are now busy building our own career and personal life, but whenever there's a chance to sit and chill, I treasure these moments no doubt.
- I am loving each day, each new day is full of adventures and treasures yet to be discovered.
Nostalgic
I love egg tarts and I have tried from several places- HK's John King (Pavilion); Canton-i; mini egg tarts from a coffee shop along jln imbi; and Tong Kee Brothers. No doubt egg tarts from each of these confectioneries are tasty and special in their way, but I still love the egg tarts from Tong Kee, for their egg tarts are really delicious and maybe because of nostalgic reasons. My late paternal grand dad whom we called 'Yeh Yeh', used to buy these lovely delicacy for us kids whenever he goes to town, even when he was in his 70's. Every time I get a bite of it memories of my beloved Yeh Yeh comes back. He went back to the Lord for a decade now, but I still feel him here, by us all the time. I used to make Yeh Yeh proud because I could complete a jigsaw puzzle all by myself when I was 3 or 4 and when I excelled in my studies, I hope I'm still making him proud today. Not only him, I hope I'm still making my paternal grand mum (MaMa) and maternal grand dad (GongGong) proud today and always. I miss them.
I hope my family are proud of me even though I could not be perfect.
I hope my family are proud of me even though I could not be perfect.
September 20, 2008
Barefoot Interview- almost
What an embarrassing day! Had a 2nd interview at THONEH- I sure hope I'll be employed! One word of caution: Do not, i repeat- DO NOT ever wear shoes that have been kept untouched for almost a year to anywhere!!
After a change of shoes to match my outfit, I went off for the scheduled interview. However, as I was walking from the parking area (open parking lot- about 2-3 minutes walk), my right heels came OFF...OMG! I was trying to keep it intact but to no avail, after a few struggling steps, I decided to snap it off. So here I was due for an the interview and almost barefooted, I made my way to the HR dept, went through the interview and finally threw the shoes away right after - Bye Bye Shoes :( There were few other interviewees.....my goodness I dare not think what was they thinking about my very, indeed very peculiar dressing. I hope the interviewers didn't notice the disaster! I walked barefoot from the hospital lobby (thank God, the crowd wasn't that big or maybe on the hindsight it should be busier, at least I could get off without being noticed) back to my car on hot pavements. Was practically running but then the pavement is stony and hot. End up having painful soles now....what a day!
After a change of shoes to match my outfit, I went off for the scheduled interview. However, as I was walking from the parking area (open parking lot- about 2-3 minutes walk), my right heels came OFF...OMG! I was trying to keep it intact but to no avail, after a few struggling steps, I decided to snap it off. So here I was due for an the interview and almost barefooted, I made my way to the HR dept, went through the interview and finally threw the shoes away right after - Bye Bye Shoes :( There were few other interviewees.....my goodness I dare not think what was they thinking about my very, indeed very peculiar dressing. I hope the interviewers didn't notice the disaster! I walked barefoot from the hospital lobby (thank God, the crowd wasn't that big or maybe on the hindsight it should be busier, at least I could get off without being noticed) back to my car on hot pavements. Was practically running but then the pavement is stony and hot. End up having painful soles now....what a day!
September 07, 2008
Every Woman
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....
enough money within her control to move out
and rent a place of her own, even if she never wants to or needs to...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....
something perfect to wear if the employer, or date of her dreams
wants to see her in an hour...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
a youth she's content to leave behind....
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to
retelling it in her old age....
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .....
a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....
one friend who always makes her laugh ... and one who lets her cry...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....
a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family....
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems,
and a recipe for a meal,
that will make her guests feel honored...
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
a feeling of control over her destiny...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to fall in love without losing herself.
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to quit a job,
break up with a lover,
and confront a friend without;
ruining the friendship...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW....
when to try harder... and WHEN TO WALK AWAY...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
that she can't change the length of her calves,
the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents.
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW....
that her childhood may not have been perfect...but it's over...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
what she would and wouldn't do for love or more...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to live alone... even if she doesn't like it...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW.. .
whom she can trust,
whom she can't,
and why she shouldn't take it personally...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
where to go...
be it to her best friend's kitchen table...
or a charming inn in the woods...
when her soul needs soothing...
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
what she can and can't accomplish in a day...
a month...and a year...
This is a beautiful poem for every woman. I'm sure you would have received it from someone. The POWER to become a woman in this world is great.
This is a beautiful poem for every woman. I'm sure you would have received it from someone. The POWER to become a woman in this world is great.
September 02, 2008
FINDING AND KEEPING A LIFE PARTNER
by Dov Heller, M.A.
When it comes to making the decision about choosing a life partner, no one wants to make a mistake. Yet, with a divorce rate of close to 50%, it appears that many are making serious mistakes in their approach to finding Mr./Miss. Right!
If you ask most couples who are engaged why they're getting married, they'll say: 'We're in love'; I believe this is the ..1 mistake people make when they date. Choosing a life partner should never be based on love. Though this may sound 'not politically correct', there's a profound truth here.
Love is not the basis for getting married. Rather, love is the result of a good marriage. When the other ingredients are right, then the love will come. Let me say it again: 'You can't build a lifetime relationship on love alone'; You need a lot more!!!
Here are five questions you must ask yourself if you're serious about finding and keeping a life partner.
QUESTION ..1: Do we share a common life purpose?
Why is this so important? Let me put it this way: If you're married for 20 or 30 years, that's a long time to live with someone. What do you plan to do with each other all that time? Travel, eat and jog together?
You need to share something deeper and more meaningful. You need a common life purpose.
Two things can happen in a marriage: (1) You can grow together, or (2)you can grow apart. 50% of the people out there are growing apart.
To make a marriage work, you need to know what you want out of life!
Bottom line; marry someone who wants the same thing.
QUESTION ..2: Do I feel safe expressing my feelings and thoughts with this person?
This question goes to the core of the quality of your relationship.
Feeling safe means you can communicate openly with this person. The basis of having good communication is trust â€' i.e. trust that I won't get 'punished'; or hurt for expressing my honest thoughts and feelings.
A colleague of mine defines an abusive person as someone with whom you feel afraid to express your thoughts and feelings. Be honest with yourself on this one. Make sure you feel emotionally safe with the person you plan to marry.
QUESTION ..3: Is he/she a mensch?
A mensch is someone who is a refined and sensitive person. How can you test? Here are some suggestions. Do they work on personal growth on a regular basis? Are they serious about improving themselves? A teacher of mine defines a good person as 'someone who is always striving to be good and do the right ';. So ask about your significant other: What do they do with their time? Is this person materialistic? Usually a materialistic person is not someone whose top priority is character refinement.
There are essentially two types of people in the world: (1) People who are dedicated to personal growth and (2) people who are dedicated to seeking comfort. Someone whose goal in life is to be comfortable will put personal comfort ahead of doing the right thing. You need to know that before walking down the aisle.
QUESTION ..4: How does he/she treat other people?
The one most important thing that makes any relationship work is the ability to give. By giving, we mean the ability to give another person pleasure.
Ask: Is this someone who enjoys giving pleasure to others or are they wrapped up in themselves and selfâ€' absorbed?
To measure this, think about the following: How do they treat people whom they do not have to be nice to, such as waiters, bus boys, taxi drivers, etc.. How do they treat their parents and siblings? Do they have gratitude and appreciation?
If they don't have gratitude for the people who have given them everything; can you do nearly as much for them? You can be sure that someone, who treats others poorly, will eventually treat you poorly as well.
QUESTION ..5: Is there anything I'm hoping to change about this person after we're married?
Too many people make the mistake of marrying someone with the intention of trying to 'improve'; them after they're married. As a colleague of mine puts it: 'You can probably expect someone to change after marriage for the worse' If you cannot fully accept this person the way they are now, then you are not ready to marry them.
In conclusion, dating doesn't have to be difficult and treacherous.
The key is to try leading a little more with your head and less with your heart. It pays to be as objective as possible when you are dating; to be sure to ask questions that will help you get to the key issues.
Falling in love is a great feeling, but when you wake up with a ring on your finger, you don't want to find yourself trouble because you didn't do your homework.
Another perspective...
There are some people in your life that need to be loved from a distance.. It's amazing what you can accomplish when you let go of or at least minimize your time with draining, negative, incompatible, not going anywhere relationships. Observe the relationships around you.
Pay attention...Which ones lift and which ones lean?
Which ones encourage and which ones discourage?
Which ones are on a path of growth uphill and which ones are going downhill?
When you leave certain people do you feel better or feel worse?
Which ones don't appreciate you?
Which ones make you feel good, praises you, boosts you with loving and caring words or annotations.
The more you seek quality, respect, growth, peace of mind, love and truth around you...the easier it will become for you to decide who gets to sit in the front row and who should be moved to the balcony of your life.
An African proverb states, 'Before you get married, keep both eyes open, and after you marry, close one eye'; Before you get involved and make a commitment to someone, don't let lust, desperation, immaturity, ignorance, pressure from others or a low selfâ€'esteem make you blind to warning signs. Keep your eyes open, and don't fool yourself that you can change someone or that what you see as faults aren't really that important.
Do you bring out the best in each other?
Do you compliment and compromise with each other, or do you compete, compare and control?
What do you bring to the relationship?
Do you bring past relationships, past hurt, past mistrust, past pain?
You can't take someone to the altar to alter them. You can't make someone love you or make someone stay.
If you develop self esteem, spiritual discernment, and 'a life'; you won't find yourself making someone else responsible for your happiness or responsible for your pain. Seeking status, sex, and security are the wrong reasons to be in a relationship.
WHAT KEEPS A RELATIONSHIP STRONG IS:
1. TRUST
2. COMMUNICATION
3. INTIMACY
4. A SENSE OF HUMOR
5. SHARING TASKS
6. DAILY EXCHANGES (meal, shared activity, hug, call, touch, notes,
etc.)
7. SHARING COMMON GOALS AND INTERESTS
8. GIVING EACH OTHER SPACE TO GROW WITHOUT FEELING INSECURE
9.GIVING EACH OTHER A SENSE OF BELONGING AND ASSURANCES OF COMMITMENT
10. CONCERN AND CARE FOR YOUR LOVER IN YOUR OWN WAYS.
If these qualities are missing, the relationship will erode as resentment withdrawal, abuse, neglect, and dishonesty; and pain will replace.
by Dov Heller, M.A.
When it comes to making the decision about choosing a life partner, no one wants to make a mistake. Yet, with a divorce rate of close to 50%, it appears that many are making serious mistakes in their approach to finding Mr./Miss. Right!
If you ask most couples who are engaged why they're getting married, they'll say: 'We're in love'; I believe this is the ..1 mistake people make when they date. Choosing a life partner should never be based on love. Though this may sound 'not politically correct', there's a profound truth here.
Love is not the basis for getting married. Rather, love is the result of a good marriage. When the other ingredients are right, then the love will come. Let me say it again: 'You can't build a lifetime relationship on love alone'; You need a lot more!!!
Here are five questions you must ask yourself if you're serious about finding and keeping a life partner.
QUESTION ..1: Do we share a common life purpose?
Why is this so important? Let me put it this way: If you're married for 20 or 30 years, that's a long time to live with someone. What do you plan to do with each other all that time? Travel, eat and jog together?
You need to share something deeper and more meaningful. You need a common life purpose.
Two things can happen in a marriage: (1) You can grow together, or (2)you can grow apart. 50% of the people out there are growing apart.
To make a marriage work, you need to know what you want out of life!
Bottom line; marry someone who wants the same thing.
QUESTION ..2: Do I feel safe expressing my feelings and thoughts with this person?
This question goes to the core of the quality of your relationship.
Feeling safe means you can communicate openly with this person. The basis of having good communication is trust â€' i.e. trust that I won't get 'punished'; or hurt for expressing my honest thoughts and feelings.
A colleague of mine defines an abusive person as someone with whom you feel afraid to express your thoughts and feelings. Be honest with yourself on this one. Make sure you feel emotionally safe with the person you plan to marry.
QUESTION ..3: Is he/she a mensch?
A mensch is someone who is a refined and sensitive person. How can you test? Here are some suggestions. Do they work on personal growth on a regular basis? Are they serious about improving themselves? A teacher of mine defines a good person as 'someone who is always striving to be good and do the right ';. So ask about your significant other: What do they do with their time? Is this person materialistic? Usually a materialistic person is not someone whose top priority is character refinement.
There are essentially two types of people in the world: (1) People who are dedicated to personal growth and (2) people who are dedicated to seeking comfort. Someone whose goal in life is to be comfortable will put personal comfort ahead of doing the right thing. You need to know that before walking down the aisle.
QUESTION ..4: How does he/she treat other people?
The one most important thing that makes any relationship work is the ability to give. By giving, we mean the ability to give another person pleasure.
Ask: Is this someone who enjoys giving pleasure to others or are they wrapped up in themselves and selfâ€' absorbed?
To measure this, think about the following: How do they treat people whom they do not have to be nice to, such as waiters, bus boys, taxi drivers, etc.. How do they treat their parents and siblings? Do they have gratitude and appreciation?
If they don't have gratitude for the people who have given them everything; can you do nearly as much for them? You can be sure that someone, who treats others poorly, will eventually treat you poorly as well.
QUESTION ..5: Is there anything I'm hoping to change about this person after we're married?
Too many people make the mistake of marrying someone with the intention of trying to 'improve'; them after they're married. As a colleague of mine puts it: 'You can probably expect someone to change after marriage for the worse' If you cannot fully accept this person the way they are now, then you are not ready to marry them.
In conclusion, dating doesn't have to be difficult and treacherous.
The key is to try leading a little more with your head and less with your heart. It pays to be as objective as possible when you are dating; to be sure to ask questions that will help you get to the key issues.
Falling in love is a great feeling, but when you wake up with a ring on your finger, you don't want to find yourself trouble because you didn't do your homework.
Another perspective...
There are some people in your life that need to be loved from a distance.. It's amazing what you can accomplish when you let go of or at least minimize your time with draining, negative, incompatible, not going anywhere relationships. Observe the relationships around you.
Pay attention...Which ones lift and which ones lean?
Which ones encourage and which ones discourage?
Which ones are on a path of growth uphill and which ones are going downhill?
When you leave certain people do you feel better or feel worse?
Which ones don't appreciate you?
Which ones make you feel good, praises you, boosts you with loving and caring words or annotations.
The more you seek quality, respect, growth, peace of mind, love and truth around you...the easier it will become for you to decide who gets to sit in the front row and who should be moved to the balcony of your life.
An African proverb states, 'Before you get married, keep both eyes open, and after you marry, close one eye'; Before you get involved and make a commitment to someone, don't let lust, desperation, immaturity, ignorance, pressure from others or a low selfâ€'esteem make you blind to warning signs. Keep your eyes open, and don't fool yourself that you can change someone or that what you see as faults aren't really that important.
Do you bring out the best in each other?
Do you compliment and compromise with each other, or do you compete, compare and control?
What do you bring to the relationship?
Do you bring past relationships, past hurt, past mistrust, past pain?
You can't take someone to the altar to alter them. You can't make someone love you or make someone stay.
If you develop self esteem, spiritual discernment, and 'a life'; you won't find yourself making someone else responsible for your happiness or responsible for your pain. Seeking status, sex, and security are the wrong reasons to be in a relationship.
WHAT KEEPS A RELATIONSHIP STRONG IS:
1. TRUST
2. COMMUNICATION
3. INTIMACY
4. A SENSE OF HUMOR
5. SHARING TASKS
6. DAILY EXCHANGES (meal, shared activity, hug, call, touch, notes,
etc.)
7. SHARING COMMON GOALS AND INTERESTS
8. GIVING EACH OTHER SPACE TO GROW WITHOUT FEELING INSECURE
9.GIVING EACH OTHER A SENSE OF BELONGING AND ASSURANCES OF COMMITMENT
10. CONCERN AND CARE FOR YOUR LOVER IN YOUR OWN WAYS.
If these qualities are missing, the relationship will erode as resentment withdrawal, abuse, neglect, and dishonesty; and pain will replace.
September 01, 2008
Pain
It is painful to let go of someone you love, but it is more painful to know that someone you once loved is not taking good care of themselves. It is painful because you know you can't be there to care for them or even ask them to love themselves more. That's what happen when you're no longer in their life. It is painful to know someone you loved is not alright, painful too when you don't know anything about their condition. All we could do is always pray for them to be in good shape and health and may this lost love be blessed always.
August 25, 2008
Together
In this world of different background, ethnic, religion, and race what brings us together?
dance, music, sports....
yeah that's it.
And LOVE,
it knows no boundaries, creating relationships and friendships- cherished always
yeah that's it.
And LOVE,
it knows no boundaries, creating relationships and friendships- cherished always
August 18, 2008
Sky Bar
It's All About The Feet!
12 August 2008- It was mum's birthday. We pampered ourselves to interesting therapies- Fish Spa and Foot Reflexology. It was something different especially the Fish Spa- the in-thing now. I was a bit scared when I was about to put in my legs, it's kind of ticklish and at times you feel little sensation of being electrocuted. Looking at the fish doing their work-picking on your dead skin, it's funny. My mum's experience was woah, she was totally freaking out on it! She gave in after awhile but it definately will be her one and only time with the fish!
The place: Fisho, Taman YulekAugust 06, 2008
Je suis encore celibataire =D =D
Have you been asked (or asked others), "Are you attached?" or "Are you seeing anyone?" ?
Funny it seems but yes, you do get these questions thrown to you every now and then without fail especially you have not been seeing these people for a long long time. Don't get me wrong, I know they meant good :)
I was chatting with my friends the other day and this topic surfaced, "What do you look for in your potential partner?" Believe me the list seems never-ending, hahaha- height in concern must be at least taller than us by 5 inches, loves traveling, eating, good looking, lanky- evenly toned muscles, humorous, talks more than we do, independent, leads a healthy lifestyle etc.
We stopped a moment from all the listings and laughters and suddenly realize no wonder we are still single- we are SO pushing the limits ain't we? Hahahaha
But then we are only humans with requirements, we know want we want! :D
Funny it seems but yes, you do get these questions thrown to you every now and then without fail especially you have not been seeing these people for a long long time. Don't get me wrong, I know they meant good :)
I was chatting with my friends the other day and this topic surfaced, "What do you look for in your potential partner?" Believe me the list seems never-ending, hahaha- height in concern must be at least taller than us by 5 inches, loves traveling, eating, good looking, lanky- evenly toned muscles, humorous, talks more than we do, independent, leads a healthy lifestyle etc.
We stopped a moment from all the listings and laughters and suddenly realize no wonder we are still single- we are SO pushing the limits ain't we? Hahahaha
But then we are only humans with requirements, we know want we want! :D
Je suis encore celibataire!
July 02, 2008
Scoliosis
I have scoliosis of the spine....could be congenital. Will be seeing the bone surgeon for further advise, but GP ruled out surgery unless for cosmetic purposes. So far I don't feel any major back pain but noticeably my waistline is uneven. Any idea on how to work up the muscle of the waist/ abdomen? :(
Job Hunting
Phew! One year has passed by so fast. Interesting and stressful but it's been a good year. As for now, I'm hunting for a job.
Results will be out in a week's time....how will it be I wonder? But I've done my very best at that moment of time and I hope it'll turn out good!
So, anyone out there who knows of opening for Research Associates/Assistant in Life Sciences, please let me know.
Thanks :)
Results will be out in a week's time....how will it be I wonder? But I've done my very best at that moment of time and I hope it'll turn out good!
So, anyone out there who knows of opening for Research Associates/Assistant in Life Sciences, please let me know.
Thanks :)
La Casa
La Casa, formerly known as Ken's Cafe at Bdr. Manjalara, moved to their new premise at The Waterfront, Desa ParkCity, near Kepong side. The interior is nice and the food-Italian- just as nice as before. Here are some of the appetizers:
Wild Mushroom Soup: 4 different types of mushrooms, chunky too :)
Fried Mozzarella Cheese: must try for cheese lovers!
(Honestly, I was skeptic but it proves me wrong, it's really really yummy)
Wild Mushroom Soup: 4 different types of mushrooms, chunky too :)
Fried Mozzarella Cheese: must try for cheese lovers!
(Honestly, I was skeptic but it proves me wrong, it's really really yummy)
Mille Crepe
This Vanilla Mille Crepe is from Food Foundry, Section 17, PJ.Made of 20 layers of crepe, it's a must try. I tried 3 flavours-vanilla, chocolate orange and chocolate......vanilla is the best for me!
Check out their website at http://www.foodfoundry.us/index.htm
They have included the directions, contacts plus their menu too. The food ain't too pricey but yet to try.
January 10, 2008
Glow worms
Glow worms, National Bridge, National Park, Queensland, Australia
Glow worms, what are they? Something like fireflies but glow worms are the worm stage of the large flies. Fireflies emits yellow glow at their bottom while glow worms emit bright blue glow, whole body through. Lucky ones who had the chance to sight these magnificent, remember the joy of it. For those who hasn't have the opportunity to do so, imagine yourself in a dark room with a christmas tree filled with blue LED and of course take a hike into the cave of Queensland National Park. This park and the glow worms are under UNESCO care. With the right care, glow worms will remain to sparkle.
Fireflies population have been dwindling, do protect them for the future.
Glow worms, what are they? Something like fireflies but glow worms are the worm stage of the large flies. Fireflies emits yellow glow at their bottom while glow worms emit bright blue glow, whole body through. Lucky ones who had the chance to sight these magnificent, remember the joy of it. For those who hasn't have the opportunity to do so, imagine yourself in a dark room with a christmas tree filled with blue LED and of course take a hike into the cave of Queensland National Park. This park and the glow worms are under UNESCO care. With the right care, glow worms will remain to sparkle.
Fireflies population have been dwindling, do protect them for the future.
Happy New Year!
Happy New Year!
It's another new year, another new start, new resolutions everything new. I'm ready for new challenges, new relationships, new environment, new commitments, everything, I'm ready in accepting all that is to come my way. I'm ready! :)
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